People are the sum of all their past experiences. Every pain, every joke, every failure, every triumph. You are what you have done, where you have been and what you have seen and heard, smelt, felt, tasted.
That is my mantra. That's what I believe, and that's what keeps me living the way I do every day.
I don't want to be sitting on my death bed, an open book full of blank pages, and a lifetime of regrets underneath my bed. I want to be full of joy and stories. I want to think back to being a blissfully ignorant teenage dirt bag, full of mistakes and short-lived regrets. The regrets that you have from the things you did,last until tomorrow, but the regret you have for the things you didn't do will last you a lifetime.
I want to listen to good music, I want to burst into random dancing, I want to laugh to hard my cheeks hurt - I want to go so fast that i'd think time would have stopped. I want to go so slow that I can watch the rest of the world hurry past for a few seconds. I want to have interesting conversations and talk about books and movies. Because the creative product of other people's experience is always a good topic of conversation.
There are so many things that I want to do, just so I can wake up everyday and be my own reason for making it through the day, I want to learn how to love myself before I fall in love with someone else. I want to learn who I am before I try teach someone else. I want to know me and love me, so that others can know me and love me too.
In the end it all winds down to wanting to be happy, but it's been said that happiness isn't a destination... it's a journey. So hold on tight, and enjoy the ride ;)
-N.H x
